I failed at JPEG
It just took one picture to make me doubt the fujifilm simulation I picked was the right one. A picture I had taken using "Hi Pro Neg” seemed fine at the moment, but I had to get curious about working the photo with a different simulation, namely the "Chrome” one. Well, the moment I picked up the camera to look for the RAW copy I still had on it, I realized I had formatted the cards to take pictures of my son's basketball game: disastrous!
Then the worst happened… I doubted.
I doubted whether or not I had picked the right color simulation to define my photographic style. I started trying different looks, never satisfied, and realizing I am too chicken, unprepared, unready, and insecure about what defines my own photography. I lost my RAW files from this walk, and with it, any self confidence I had gained in one simple instant.
Shooting JPEG seems to be the true test of limitation. The same as shooting film.
It feels if I follow down this road of self-doubt, I might need to get counseling. Just kidding, I guess I am taking myself too seriously. At this moment, my conclusion is that in my personal journey I am still to green and untested, and should perhaps cut myself some slack. I shall keep a RAW copy to my jpegs, for the time being :-)
Let me share with you the photos I found that day.